I never imagined I would be in this place. Ever. But, I’m guessing no one does. I've tried so
hard to remain positive over the last year, so hard. But, I am totally defeated.
Another cycle has come and gone in our TTC journey -- but, not
without seeing two pink lines. {Morgan doesn't like me to swear on the blog so
insert expletive of your choice here}. Let me say that I took the tests early. Stupidly early
because I feel like it is the only part of this whole process that I get to
control. I get to pee on that stupid stick whenever I want, and that helps me
deal. Anyway, I wasn't expecting much from that first test and after 5 minutes it
was negative. Nothing.
But a couple minutes later -- the second line showed up. I’m
obviously not new to the TTC world, I know it could have been an evaporation line
and that the test has to be counted as negative. Except I've seen 20 evap.
lines in my time and this line was pink as can be. I thought “I’ll test again
tomorrow, that will settle it.”
Ha.
The next day, the same thing happened -- faint positive just after the time limit. Then, it happened again on the next three tests I took. All faint positive pink lines all slightly after 5 minutes. {Insert another expletive}. I wasn’t super surprised when the cycle ended. All the signs were there and I didn’t get attached to the idea of a pregnancy.
I can't say for sure that it was another chemical pregnancy, but it's likely. After this, my OB and I have changed our game plan. I will now be taking progesterone once I have confirmed ovulation until the end of my cycle. If I happen to get pregnant, then I will continue taking it through the first trimester.
My OB has given us three cycles for this to be successful, or else she is sending me to the infertility specialist. So, if all goes well, I'll be starting the new treatment next week. Honestly, I'm dreading it. My OB warned me of the negative side effects of progesterone and I guess it can be pretty rough. Ugh.
But, what choice to we have at this point? It's basically this, or stop TTC and see the specialist. I guess hormone supplements are the lesser of two evils.
Anyone else take progesterone prior to pregnancy? Did you have any negative side effects?
